It's funny, for as long as I can remember I've wanted to be a mom and a teacher. I taught special ed for 5 years before becoming a mom and I am still teaching everyday that I wake up to my daughters beckoning call. That has been enough for me for the last four years.
For financial reasons I have picked up a new job working at the local country club doing waitressing for banquets and bartending once a week.
I am having such a difficult time spending even the tiniest bit of time away from my family.
I guess since the deployment I am so afraid of what might happen next and how precious every moment is. I worked part time before the deployment, I went for runs alone, I went out with the girls. Now I don't want to be away from my family for a second. I missed a run with the Running Chick on Saturday because I had to work. I miss the running chicks. I miss not being afraid.
thank goodness for therapy!!