Thank you everyone for feeding me with the positive support when I was having a really bad day. It is still amazing to me how virtual strangers know what to say to "keep you going" and that goes for the offline comments I received as well :). I tend to be a dweller at times and I guess all of the dwelling finally caught up to me and I had enough. Enough of being a single parent, enough of celebrating occasions alone, enough of lacking intimacy... I could go on and on. After IMing with my husband in the land of sand and receiving a very encouraging email from a "friend" , I realized how far I've come in this deployment and how close it is to being over. I've done 11 months of separation I only have 6 weeks to go!!
So I've decided to put my obsessive behavior to a different cause- the marathon. It will be a the perfect distraction for the next 46 days.
I had this eye opening revelation on Monday, my scheduled rest day. Tuesday, I joined the gym to work on some "core strength" training and then I went for a 3.something run around UCONN. I'm not exactly sure of the distance as the battery on my MP3 Run died before I even hit the 1 mile marker. It was a fast, enjoyable run at any rate. I don't know if it was my reminiscing of my time at UCONN that sped the time by or the dodging of all the construction that kept me distracted.
Wednesday, I woke up to a terrible sinus cold. My cheeks were killing me and it was all I could do to get out of bed and get Maggie ready and off to school. Then I got this crazy thought that if I went for a run I might be able to clear some of the junk out of my head and sinuses. I chose a flat out and back route on the dike near our tiny Windham airport. I put in 25 minutes of running. Out and back is 2.4 so I continued to run until I hit 25 minutes thinking with my pacing that would land me about 3 miles. I didn't feel any better and nothing was cleared from my head so I headed home to try to squeeze in a nap before picking up mini me.
I had 3 on the schedule for today but considering I am not recovered and the fact that it was a torrential downpour at 8:30am I opted to come home and watch Martha make "wrapping" paper with P Diddy. I have always loved Martha but she is even more enjoyable to watch now since her release from prison. She cracks jokes and lets loose it's a great show! Tomorrow, the plan is to go for my 3 and catch up with Dianna and April Anne for 10 of their 20 mile training run Saturday! WooHoo- go running chicks!